LilyLoo and GockaBoo

My consciousness surfaces
With a hand on my face and the weight
of a leg across my belly,
Both belonging to my two favorite beings,
The pieces of me that actually make sense.

I open my eyes to his freckles,
A squashy nose and dimples,
A smile that exceeds the morning’s sunshine
Streaming through my window.

He touches his baby nose to mine
And moves away, grinning.

I turn over so as not to wake her
Gently removing her leg from on top of me
And turn to watch her sleep -
Amazed.
I hug her gently,

Amazed by the beauty of her peaceful slumber,
The mole just under her eye.
The mole on her neck.
A toy spazzes over us, crashes against the wall,
across my thoughts.

He peers with all his stealth over the corner
of the edge of the bed – grinning.
Look Mommy! Batman can fly!
Ssh! I shake my head, a finger to my lips –
It touches my smile and I laugh silently
So as not to wake her.

She stirs and then goes still and I find her baby hand,
Yet bigger still than his, warm and soft
And I reach an arm to him and he crawls up and digs
Through the blankets and my shirt to my tummy where
He took so many naps once when he was smaller.
He blows a raspberry there now.
And she says, Mommy! I dreamed there was a rainbow
and a pony and…
She keeps talking and he starts talking with her.

I pull the blankets up closer around me
and throw them off and over them
And the tickling starts and when we can breathe again
I say, how about breakfast?
YaY! They sing
And run away and I lie there, one moment,
Cherishing them, the pieces that make me make sense to myself.

Both Sides Now by Joni Mitchell

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
Ive looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
Ive looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real
Ive looked at love that way

But now its just another show
You leave em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away

Ive looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
Its love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Ive looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say Ive changed
Well somethings lost, but somethings gained
In living every day

Ive looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
Its life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all
Ive looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
Its life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all